I am built like a gorilla. So, it makes up for it. Never bothered me not being tall. I have beat the sh1t out of dudes taller than me and my whole fraternity house, even the taller guys, would come to me if a guest at our house was causing problems and I needed to handle it ... usually drunk as eff.
It felt so weird not drinking on a Friday night last night. It's been a while since I have gone dry.
You must have lived your entire life in profoundly violent settings...
I am several decades older than you and I have hardly ever experienced the violence that seems to have pervaded a large part of your posts here... It must be a rough life for you...