Shiit I cut back on a bunch .. readapted.. started figuring other ways to make the quality of my surroundings better through Mother Nature.. I’ve had some good ones.. I almost died a couple days ago.. again.. still motivated .. I don’t know about having it tough.. you gotta have a gear in the back of your mind that instantly remembers how times use tooobe..laugh and smile about it.. gather patience.. then shoot for the moon.. floating around in the unknown darkness.. your energy to persist weightless in your heart.. that feeling of life .. like know other..
Then you know exactly what i have been doing for decades...It made me strong, brave and wise....gave me the mind of a wizard....